The pull

I’m not sure if it’s gazing at the mixtiles on the stairs, the lingering pandemic or just normal mum feelings but I really feel pulled in both directions at the moment. It feels like I am a thick tug of war rope at an old school fete as the dads battle it out for strongest […]

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For my dear friend Helen

I think this might be something I talk about too much but I think the hardest thing to manage as a parent is the pull. This can be a little tug at your heart strings right through to the feeling of an invisible arm man-handling you backwards. When they are first born and this tiny […]

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And relax…

Mega surreal waiting to talk to BBC Radio 5 live about half term and what to do. My plans involve… well no plans. How lovely is it to not have to be mean mummy for the week? My heart hurts a little each time I have to cut off a story they are telling me […]

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3.0

Just wanted to do a quick post to check in and make sure everyone was ok and coping with lockdown 3.0? I feel like I am on a rollercoaster. One minute I am grateful for the extra time we all get to spend together and so thankful for our home and safety, the next minute […]

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Podgy Arms

I can’t stop thinking about podgy arms this week. Wilfred is just clinging onto his cute toddler frame where his body length is disproportionate to his legs and it is all so squishy and delightful. I gave his arm an extra little squeeze as I checked on him last night to try and bank a […]

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The Impossible Decision.

The eve of a new normal for us. I’m not sure we as parents have ever had to make such an important decision. It genuinely felt at times like we were damned either way. If we sent the children to school and nursery and they got poorly, it would be our fault for taking the […]

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Hit the pause button

The weirdest part about having children is the pull. You are so torn between wanting your children to be little forever and desperately wanting to fast-forward to see the adult they will become. Pleading to get through a horrible phase as quickly and unscathed as possible, yet desperately sad as your baby disappears before your […]

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Anaesthetic high

It’s weird, when you are a child you are given constant reassurance, praise and multiple pats on the back for doing things well, or quite honestly, even averagely at times. Adulthood hits and there seems to be this weird shift. Suddenly we might make someone too much of a show off to praise them, too […]

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School mum

At the tender age of 30 I became a school mum, no longer smug booking term time holidays at bargain prices. I’d heard so many horror stories about the dreaded school gate. A year in, what would I tell myself? BBC’s Motherland, a comedy based around a group of school mums is actually quite depressing […]

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Instagram V Reality

I am working on a piece for my portfolio on the topic of Instagram v reality and thought I would blog about it too from my cheese induced coma, it’s been a while! This time of year is reflective, full of hope for a new year (and decade!) but equally full of sadness over those […]

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