I have a spring in my step this week as despite my bad weekend, I think I am on for a loss on Saturday morning. (Insert Smithy style “Yes” when Gavin joins in singing “do they know it’s Christmas”).
I have been snatching inspiration everywhere I possibly can. Eminem is my car cd (when impressionable George is absent) and he’s full of inspiration “you only get one shot…” etc. 😂. Also Instagram, success stories, ww magazine, my slim friends, the gorgeous autumn weather and literally anything to inspire me.
One of my favourite bloggers on Instagram @healthy_living_made_simple made a really good point about food this week. Not directly quoting here and a lot less eloquent but the gist was; don’t waste the calories having a cheat meal somewhere rubbish. Save your favourite dish for somewhere that does it to perfection. Why have a mediocre high calorie meal? This has really resonated with me. I often cave when eating out and skip by the salad section for a carb induced coma. It is a real rarity that I think it was worth blowing the diet for and more often than not I have severe stomach ache all night, along with pangs of food guilt and sadness that I can’t jump out of bed onto the scales, knowing they will be lower.
In some ways I am really mad with myself for letting myself get “fat” and wasting most of my twenties either depressed about it or on a diet with short term losses. Why couldn’t I get it off long term? Self loathing clearly hasn’t helped though so I call time on negativity. The big 3-0 looms large in April 2018 and I really want to wear a size 10 dress with a smug grin that I’ve finally lost the weight for good.
I leave you with some lyrics from “lose yourself” by Eminem 😂 and a link to that Smithy scene!
“Look
If you had
One shot
Or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted
In one moment
Would you capture
Or just let it slip?”
The Lincolnshire Mummy 