Turn to the books

Everything feels so tough right now. I feel guilty for making a choice to turn the news off. Guilty I have the option to turn off something that is making me anxious when people are living it, not able to turn it off or escape. Guilty for seeming to care more about this crisis than […]

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People Pleaser

I have always been a people pleaser with a huge drive to be liked. I have vivid memories of being a child and getting that rush of endorphins when someone would say I had done well or been kind. At some point along the way, I grew up and that validation that I was doing […]

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January

I really like January. The promise of a new year, fresh beginnings and hope. This year more than ever I feel I am clinging onto the latter with both hands. Articles are starting to quote scientists who have optimism that the worst is behind us and I really want to ride that wave of hope […]

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Fa la la la la, la la la la

Just keep swimming. Will we see family this year? Will we get locked down for January? Will my house ever be tidy? Is there even room for new toys in the playroom? Will I ever wrap the presents? Last Christmas felt so difficult trying to feel festive when the festivities were snatched away so close […]

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The Gauntlet

There doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day at the moment to squeeze everything in. I feel like a fat hamster running around its wheel with a constant mantra of “if I keep going forwards, things will get easier”. I am tempted to sit down and let it carry on spinning around me […]

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The pull

I’m not sure if it’s gazing at the mixtiles on the stairs, the lingering pandemic or just normal mum feelings but I really feel pulled in both directions at the moment. It feels like I am a thick tug of war rope at an old school fete as the dads battle it out for strongest […]

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Engerrrrland

I love that you can feel the buzz of the country in the air. Obviously it’s mandatory to listen to Three Lions, Vindaloo, World in Motion and Carnival de Paris on repeat until Saturday right? As I jumped around the room with my six-year-old and watched his excited face, hands over his eyes when Germany […]

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The ‘rona

Well it’s not been my favourite couple of weeks, perhaps up there with the worst but I can now see light at the end of the tunnel. We had all had nasty colds but no typical symptoms at all. The children being at school I have got used to lateral flow testing a couple of […]

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For my dear friend Helen

I think this might be something I talk about too much but I think the hardest thing to manage as a parent is the pull. This can be a little tug at your heart strings right through to the feeling of an invisible arm man-handling you backwards. When they are first born and this tiny […]

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