Turn to the books

Everything feels so tough right now. I feel guilty for making a choice to turn the news off. Guilty I have the option to turn off something that is making me anxious when people are living it, not able to turn it off or escape. Guilty for seeming to care more about this crisis than […]

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People Pleaser

I have always been a people pleaser with a huge drive to be liked. I have vivid memories of being a child and getting that rush of endorphins when someone would say I had done well or been kind. At some point along the way, I grew up and that validation that I was doing […]

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The Gauntlet

There doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day at the moment to squeeze everything in. I feel like a fat hamster running around its wheel with a constant mantra of “if I keep going forwards, things will get easier”. I am tempted to sit down and let it carry on spinning around me […]

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For my dear friend Helen

I think this might be something I talk about too much but I think the hardest thing to manage as a parent is the pull. This can be a little tug at your heart strings right through to the feeling of an invisible arm man-handling you backwards. When they are first born and this tiny […]

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Love every moment…

There is so much pressure to cherish every single moment with your baby, it can feel a bit overwhelming. “You’ll miss it when they are, grown up,” is often banded about from wise, older souls. I can honestly, hand on heart say, I will not miss the first few months of Sybbie’s life. No glasses […]

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Anxiety loop

I’ve found myself in a bit of a self-perpetuating loop lately. I fight hard against anxiety and for the most part win the battle. Covid though, and in particular lockdown make the wins exhausting as we are literally staying at home for our own safety. How can you not be triggered by this and potentially […]

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Mental Health

Bringing up boys I often find myself saying “that’s not very kind” but if one of them asked me to tell them what being kind means, I think I might struggle to articulate an answer succinctly. Sometimes it is a feeling like love, a natural act done subconsciously like my two-year-old planting a kiss on […]

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Excellent

The world seems to be a bit naff at the moment. The Coronavirus threat is ever closer to home. A couple of schools in Lincolnshire have been closed for a deep clean and a friend is off work in quarantine this week. In general, I think we are all a bit scared about it and […]

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Anaesthetic high

It’s weird, when you are a child you are given constant reassurance, praise and multiple pats on the back for doing things well, or quite honestly, even averagely at times. Adulthood hits and there seems to be this weird shift. Suddenly we might make someone too much of a show off to praise them, too […]

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Body Confidence

How many times have you clocked a beautiful girl, probably “bigger” than you and just thought wow, she looks amazing. I would bet a lot of money that her body confidence and heightened sense of self worth has made her look that bit more attractive than you feel you are. I am such a slave […]

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