Urgh, Silent Reflux

As another week ticks by and the pain and fear in your face continues to break my heart, I rock you to sleep in my arms, wiping away tears from your face, unsure where yours end and mine begin. You so want to be happy and join in the madness but your constant pain and […]

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Anxiety loop

I’ve found myself in a bit of a self-perpetuating loop lately. I fight hard against anxiety and for the most part win the battle. Covid though, and in particular lockdown make the wins exhausting as we are literally staying at home for our own safety. How can you not be triggered by this and potentially […]

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Lockdown Baby

I’ve not written for a while as like most of you, what on earth do I have to talk about? 2020 has been such a bizarre year, beyond writing about the latest box-set we are watching post the monotonous bedtime routine, I have nothing to say. Honestly, we can’t even commit to one without going […]

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Hit the pause button

The weirdest part about having children is the pull. You are so torn between wanting your children to be little forever and desperately wanting to fast-forward to see the adult they will become. Pleading to get through a horrible phase as quickly and unscathed as possible, yet desperately sad as your baby disappears before your […]

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Anaesthetic high

It’s weird, when you are a child you are given constant reassurance, praise and multiple pats on the back for doing things well, or quite honestly, even averagely at times. Adulthood hits and there seems to be this weird shift. Suddenly we might make someone too much of a show off to praise them, too […]

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Instagram V Reality

I am working on a piece for my portfolio on the topic of Instagram v reality and thought I would blog about it too from my cheese induced coma, it’s been a while! This time of year is reflective, full of hope for a new year (and decade!) but equally full of sadness over those […]

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September, guilt is in the air.

September used to mean shiny shoes to break in and a spangly new pencil case full of sharp pencils of promise and Berol handwriting pens, so much cooler with the click down lid and pocket slider, had to be blue not black. The smell of new books and the butterflies of self-doubt and trepidation for […]

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Body Confidence

How many times have you clocked a beautiful girl, probably “bigger” than you and just thought wow, she looks amazing. I would bet a lot of money that her body confidence and heightened sense of self worth has made her look that bit more attractive than you feel you are. I am such a slave […]

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Wedding nostalgia

One of my best friends gets married later this year, it’s a special fairy tale ending so I am extremely excited and all things wedding got me a bit nostalgic for my own wedding, nearly six years ago. Watching the home movie the other day I realised quite how different life is now and tried […]

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Grief

I have never been able to come to terms with the idea of death. I am not an atheist but also not particularly religious so have confusions over my version of the afterlife.  I recently read Dolly Alderton’s ‘Everything I know about Love’, and though not a major plot-line, a brief thought discussed the amazement […]

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